Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Dear Lord, forgive me for the times I've wandered from You and thought that a life away from You would bring me the fun, joy, happiness, love that I want and need for this lifetime. Forgive me for the myopia I've had with regards to how I view myself and for how I've given myself far less worth than You have given me. Forgive me for doubting Your love for me when You have already done so much and have given me so much more than I ever deserve.
Thank You for Your patience with me that continues to see me through my tantrum-throwing moments/ days/ periods and that patience which means You don't ever give up on me, ever. Thank You for Your love that is safe and stable like a harbor that I can always return to, no matter how far I've sailed or wandered.
Thank You for the precious lessons that You have taught me and brought me through in 2006 and even the years before that. I am in awe when I look back and reflect on how You orchestrated my life even before I knew You. I am in awe when You consider me worthy enough to want to make me right even though I feel like the most unworthy person most of the times. I am so thankful that You pulled me out of the miry clay and considered me worthy enough for You to want to shape and mould me into the masterpiece that You have planned for me to be.
Thank You for taking interest in me, in lil' ol' me when You prolly have like tonnes and millions of others to take care of as well. Thank You for Your love for me, even when I've turned self-serving and forget all about my grander purposes here on earth. Thank You for forgiving me of all the sins (of commission and omission) that I've committed, whether consciously or not.
Thank You for preserving my life so I can see my purpose here on earth unfold before my eyes. Thank You for considering me worthy enough to want to journey through this life (and beyond) with me. Thank You for the friends who have stood by me through my moments of defiance/ deference/ rebellion/ stubborness/ MIA-ness.
Thank You for showing me my worth through their eyes and through Yours. Thank You for teaching me that I am a precious one in Your sight and that I should not waste my affections/ time/ emotions on any more toads until You bring the right one to me, and I to him.
Thank You for all the wrongs that I've had to go through to cherish the rights. Thank You for so much awareness that You've brought my way so I can understand myself as Your masterpiece so much better. Thank You God.
And as the rest of 2007 continue to unfold, I pray for Your blessings in the following areas:
1. A suitable full-time job that will utilise my strengths. Lord, thank You for the lessons that You have taught me regarding the work issue. Thank You for the clarity that I now have with regards to the work issue in my life. Thank You that You will bring me to a suitable job, a place of green pastures which You have prepared in advance for me. Teach me to wait upon You as You show me where that place is.
2. To look forward and to leave the past behind. What has already happened in the past is gone and can hurt/ affect/ bother me no more. This includes the guys who have broken my heart in major ways over the past years. Lord, I leave all those with You. You have taught me to be wiser when it comes to such matters and I pray that I will put the lessons that I've learnt through much pain and tears to good use.
With regards to work, I pray that I will continue to gain confidence in my ability to go into a full-time job. I pray that I will leave the past in terms of my bad employment history behind and move forward with You as You lead me to a suitable job. Let me put all the bad choices in the past behind so I can move forward with You, Lord.
Things/ people that could have been aren't. And I want to leave them as such, Lord. If I keep dwelling on the past, I cannot move forward to the future with You, and for You. Lord, in Jesus' name, I leave all my past baggages behind. I hereby renounce any and all association and hold they have on me, in Jesus' name. Amen.
3. Unsavory habits I've reacquainted myself with in 2006. I break their hold on me in Jesus' name!
Thus said, I present myself as a clean slate before You Lord Jesus, washed by Your precious blood and the redeeming powers of Your love and grace. I present myself as Your willing instrument for the days ahead. I lift myself and I give myself into Your hands Lord and allow You to lead me to greater heights that I've never even imagined.
Mould me, use me,
Teach me, fill me,
Lead me, take me,
Show me, love me.
God bless!
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swirly twirly me ~ *~*butterfly*~* ~
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