Thursday, October 12, 2006

I thank You Jesus, for the love You've continuously poured out just for me. I thank You Jesus for how far You've brought me and how far You will continue to bring me. I thank You Jesus, that You will continue to love, cherish and adore me in spite of what I feel about myself. I thank You Jesus, that no matter how others may come and hurt me and make me feel like I'm not worthy, my worth in You doesn't change. I thank You Jesus, for the love of family and friends that You have so generously blessed me with.

I thank You Jesus that You only have the best plans for me and everything You have given and will give to me are only the best. I thank You Jesus that if it is in Your plans for me to marry, You have chosen only the best guy for me. I thank You Jesus that You have picked him out of the billions and billions of people just for me. I thank You Jesus that he will be one who will share in the wonders You have done in my life and give praise to You together with me. I thank You Jesus that he will cherish, honor, protect, love me just as he has been loved by You. I thank You Jesus, that together, we will have a household that will praise and honor You all the days of our lives.

I thank You Jesus, that it will be the perfect time when we shall meet, not a minute early, nor a minute late. I thank You Jesus, that the ultimate romance I have dreamt of will happen because You are the Great Matchmaker and I will choose to trust in Your choice of a life partner for me.

I thank You Jesus, that all the guys I've gone out with were not the one for me because You want to give so much more to me. I thank You Jesus, that through all of these relationships, You have taught me to wait on You for Your choice of a mate for me. I thank You Jesus, that all I need to do is to trust in You.

For that ultimate romance of my lifetime that You have planned for me, I will choose to keep myself pure until it is time for the one whom You have lovingly handpicked for me to come into my life, and I into his. I will not waste my precious emotions, time or attention on one who doesn't deserve it. I am Your princess - cherished, adored, precious, loved, and I choose to wait on You till it's time for that prince to come into my life.

Jesus, You alone give me the love that this heart needs. Jesus, You alone are the Lover of my soul. Jesus, You alone hung on that cross to die for my sins. Jesus, You alone endured that cruel, cold moment when God the Father turned His eyes from You.

Jesus, I love You.
For the goodness You continuously pour into my life.
For injecting the fillers of love that this heart needs.
Like a meandering river finding its way through the cracks.
For Your patience in waiting for me, no matter what I do.
Jesus, I love You.
And I know, ever so slowly, but surely, that You love me too.
With a love that is so much more than I can ever comprehend.

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Esther, I'm sorry that I've chosen to entertain that thought that I'm not worthy/ significant enough because of his callous, cold and cruel treatment of me. I'm sorry that I've allowed you to be chained to his whims and fancies. I'm sorry that I've allowed him to hurt you so much. I'm sorry about the tears you've cried, the nights you didn't sleep well, the times you've gotten yourself drunk because of him. I'm sorry...Please forgive me.

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swirly twirly me ~ *~*butterfly*~* ~
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